Medicine

Medicines taken
I felt sometimes in my life that medicines that I took were not always needed. I know I have ADHD. But the different meds they gave me, I wondered sometimes if I needed.
I went through so many meds till they found one that worked for my ADHD. That process sucked. Being on Medicaid also made things difficult. Because good Drs won't take it.
My grandmother raised me and she did the best she could. But I think I was taken to the Dr for a cold or just a cough. What felt like to me going for just anything.
This doesn't seem like a bad thing on the surface. But, when you live your life being told you have to have this med. Or don't pay attention to her. She hasn't had her medicine today and she is having an ADHD episode. That is when the pain hits.
You begin to not feel normal like you used to. You feel ashamed you have to take the meds.
I took medicine for my ADHD, my thyroid condition, and any little element that hit me. I feel like my childhood was sickly. So I am raising my boys different.
I am not shaming anything with this post. At the time that this stuff happened that is how I felt.